June 02, 2009

I is feeling very sick. Ive just wasted what ive eaten. Felt better aft vomiting. Im not feeling well since aftnoon. Or its bcoz maybe im too depressed and stress right now.

Test is tmrw. And i tink im gonna die. I dun think that i can remember anything aft revising. I is read also i is dun understand how?? And ive been thinking abt tis eversince im in year 2 now. And it's actually bothering me. Coz it will affect my future of coz. And today i felt really lost and hopeless. All thx to tat juling for saying sarcastic and demoralizing remarks in class. Thx alot! Bravo!! I think its a wake up call for me? It got me thinking of am i at the right path? And this path leads me to where? I am too depressed to think abt it. There's alot in my mind rite now. I was even thinking of quiting. But wats the use. Quiting will leads me to nowhere. Like what my father use to tell me, finish up wateva ive started. yeah. haiya im in a very complicated situation rite now.

Aft graduating where do i go? Ive been thinking alot on that. Poly? in the first place i dun even tink tat im qualified in any polys. Polyclinic je yg ble. hahaha. find a job? Nowadays finding a job is hard. Or maybe fly off to another country? haha cm paham. Someone ever told me am i gonna lead a typical life? Where aft i graduate, find a job, get married, have kids and be a housewife. hmmm... But i dun see myself as a carreer woman anyways. Being a housewife is fun too. hahaha ive always wanted that as my last dreams. Haiya i is dunnoe la.

When im too stress thinking of the future, i'll always think abt those who had died of young age. Tkya nk susa2 pikiran kn. hahahaha




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