April 14, 2009

I'm feeling sad and very very depressed right now. I think i miss having my cousin as my classmate. Miss those times. Where there's only me and her. Wherever we go always together. We'll go and have our break together, go hiding together and even to the extend of having to and fro bus ride for the sake of killing time while waiting for the next lesson. Yes. We don't have any other friends. There are a few but they will only come to us when in need. Yes. that bad. Coz during my macpherson times, i had a very weird classmates. And i hate those teachers ok la not all i hate my class advisor only and even my class. They sux big time. Life was hard back then. But atleast i manage to excel my studies and proof to that mamapariahamaporengek that i can do it. I still recall when my CA gave me the gpa award letter to me, oohhhh the feeling was unexplainable! yeah! Coz they always look down on me. That was the worst i ever tasted in life. But of coz there's happy times that i'll never forget. Mostly with my cousin. She was the one who's always there beside me to understand and support me even till now. No doubt i always felt calm and happy when i let out what i've been keeping and all. I really miss those times, whenever we felt lazy to go class and felt like cabot. We'll cabot to Tm or to my house. Best thing is we never pin point whose fault or whose idea who wanted to cabot and all. Coz it's our own accord to make the move and all. I miss everything. I feel like crying right now..If only lah she's my classmate now maybe i won't be too depressed like how i am now..

And that reminds of me and onni. Like how we used to be. Always together from primary to sec school. Always went to school together. Went back home together. And even went to hide at our secret hiding place together. Till one of my old fren used to say kalo ade maya mesti ade ko kalo ade ko mesti ade maya. haha! or he'll asked eh tk klua? oh klua ngan sape? maya eh? hahaha! that was so long ago. I can still remember the times when we've became famous for always being the late comers haha!
Those times when we cabot skola. Padahal da smpai luar skola haha! But still we dun pin point at each other whose at fault or whose idea. Coz once again it's our own accord to make the move.
Those were the times. We don't really care of not having other friends being with us or not. As long as we're happy. That's the important thing. I really feel like crying. If only onni is my classmate. Maybe she would had given me the support to be strong. Coz i admit i'm not strong. Easily depressed with ppl's words.

I miss everything. I'm very sad. I'm gonna cry to my sleep.
This post is nothing. Just letting out of what i'm feeling.
That's all.
k da bye.




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