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March 08, 2009 Obiet..knape kamu harus pergik sihhhhhh... First of all, let me scream AAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH@!$%$#^$%&^%$*##!!!! K da!! There's so much for me to say. So much to let it all out. The only thing that i really want all to know is that i'm really really TIREDDDDD. yeah. i'm exhausted. Tired of everything. I don't have enough rest. And i guess i can never have enough rest for the rest of my life. k ah bedek. I'm too depressed, pressured, helpless, hopeless and everything. I'm at the verge of giving up everything. yeah everything in my life. I know i'm such a loser -_- Kalo tidak kerane iman, ugame, balasan di akhirat dan laen2 sewaktu dgn nye kn...Da lame ako terjun diri. K that's bad coz i even think of committing suicide khakakaka!! That's how depressed i am. The sad news has been passed ard. And ako jugak yg org entrust. Beginilah nasib anak perempuan saorang sahaje. When the cousins and all gave me advices this and that, swear i can feel the pressure. I even give it a thought that maybe i won't even have time for my own. So i can say gdbye to me going out as and when i like. Say gdbye to my free time. Say gdbye to everything. Maybe i won't even have time to spend with my friends. I even thought of quitting school. nyahahaha! I can get a big headache when i think abt my future. Some advice me to proceed on studying aft i finish my ite. Be a woman with a career. Don't get married too soon/young. Nanti menyesal. khakakaka!! I've been thinking abt wateva they say. How am supposed to proceed on with my studies and have a career? Go on with something that i'm not interested in? I don't wanna force and drag myself once again. I've been thinking of getting married at young age. Coz for the fact that what i want as a career is to be a cook! yeah! So when i get married i want to be a housewife and be a cook for my family. nyahahaha!! alah wateva laa..Too soon to think abt now. So exam is tomorrow. And i'm not prepared. Coz i don't have enough time to revise. K the thing is we should revise 2 months before exam. So serve me right and it seems that i never learn my lesson. So i'll give my best shot for tomorrow. Thx onni and the cousin for giving me endless support. Trust me you guys words really made me think positive. Although i really wanna give up. Thx the cousin for the great help when i'm really in need the most. Yeah tats all. peace yo! + + +
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