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July 28, 2006 Hi Today is today..Today is my most depressed day..I mean in school.. I look like one retarded person in class..I kept looking outside the window even though my teacher's giving the theory.. I myself dun noe and understand what i've been thinking all this while..Out of sudden, in Java class, i wanted to cry.. I feel like taking the glass cover for the comp and smashing it at the window or worst smashing it anyone's face or head.. HAHA.. But no, i did control my emotions..Then suddenly i felt like dying..I wanted to die..No no I wanted to cry..CRY..Cry in pain..Coz my spine or my back hurts sooooo badly..At that moment i feel like lying down..The pain you wont understand.. And thankz to my two best buddy in class for making me smile with your stupid mat kotai hairstyle and the klepeeek lips..haha Today for the first time in my life someone read my personal stories..It is really too personal that no one can read it..But since you're someone i trust then i let you read it.. And i sympathise with you for whats happening in your life rite now.. Be strong okay.. And today i had my really heavy dinner..haha then on the way home, met someone that soo long ive never seen..Kinda funny..haha..Akward.. Tomorrow or later in the afternoon, someone is coming over to give me a massage..Due to my spine that hurts badly..Haha i can die out of pain one day..It is torturing me..I cant sit for a very long time especially in class and on the bus.. I wanna save money..Wohoo!!! Nowadays, i dun spend my quality time alone in the room like i used to..I dun noe, i cant find the time..Stare at the mirror, smile to myself.Talk to myself,and write all the things that stuck in my head.See, ive lost my inspirations to write..I wish to be a novelist one day..Like Biyan..haha Who wrote every single things that happened in her life..haha okay bye..
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