Nothing lasts forever. * -

April 28, 2006

Last Resort

I thought my heart will stop beating..and never had the chance to see the world again..but theres another chance given..coz the world loves me..but i dont love the world..so thats why..

Deep deep inside my heart theres a wound that can never be healed..i guess..its so pedih sungguh pedih..i dun noe..most ppl tend to always lie and give FAT n FAKE hopes to me..ive always been the one waiting and in the end im the one who suffers..when ppl promised me anything..i'll keep it and wait and in the end the story will turn out to be different..somehow i told and ask myself am i that really stupid??so thats why ppl tend to take advantage..ppl pls stop it im not an idiot that you can as and when you like you come and go like fark..

Sometimes i really hate myself..but not all the time..i noe im just like a piece of blank paper that is waiting to be written on..dont you agree with me?

just like when you in need you'll come to me..i dont mind but everything has its limits..eversince from secondary school till now things have always been the same..i did bottled up all my emotions from sec school till now coz i dun noe how to share with ppl i really trust..baahh..every where i go criticism have always been my side..teachers looking down on students like me and certain ppl..pity us.. somehow i kind of hate them till now..sorry to say but i hate to hate ppl from the same race..but what am i supposed to do..i still remember when the times me and my friends were in dilemma..dont ask what dilemma are we in..this soul that sent from above, instead of giving positive remarks and motivate us to choose the right path, this soul never even care about us..instead this soul encourage the ones that its likes.. coz antare beribu satu lah pujaan hati.. in english its favouritism..i really hate favouritism bcoz of this it might coz ppl's self esteem to be low..that sec skools incident i will never forget..never never once i will forget..my momma once told me "pls forgive that someone but never forget them or worst dun ever forget their names" i will not..coz in years to come im gonna hate you..

like now ive hated my pari teacher that had coz my self esteem to be really low..

humans are humans..oh no im not here for revenge..im just venting my anger thats all..not happy when reading my blog..then get lost..

i think this will be my last time im updating my blog..i mean here..coz i think i hate ppl to read my blog.. ho ho then why do i have a blog right? hah i want to have a blog but no one to read it..

hmm ok la bye..

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