December 23, 2005

Sumting really troubles me..and i still cant get it..i noe for the past few days ive not being me own self..its totally not me..simply not me..i noe im over reacting..
coz i dun noe who i wanna vent my anger to..its so complicated..
the fact is i am damn angry..but to who i dun noe..i cant manage my anger..its really not nice treating sumbody in a bloody moodless way..i noe..

Here i wanna say i am really sorry to all my friends for not being the way i am..i hope to seek you ppl understanding..i am sorry..coz the fact is im in the situation of dilema..and i cant think properly..what comes to my mind..that is what i wanna do..my brain are not working properly..i admit that..baahh..i noe when i follow what my mind say..i'll regret..but atleast im satisfied..minus the fact that ive no one to tell all my stories and problems..and i dun wanna trouble anyone.. the minute my anger is there..ive lose all my happines..

im also a human..normal human being..i have heart lungs kidneys eyes ears and everything you have right now ..like you..yes you now reading my blog..i wanna be treated same way as others..but the fact..oh the fact is so cruel..ive always put my top priority is family..coz from there i began my life journey..but only god noes..after what had happened..ive changed my mind..my top priority is my friends..but do they think of the same way?am i always in their mind?once again only god noes..

this is reality not dreams..ive always loves fantasy..coz fantasy is where i can think of happines..ive always wanted to be happy..but i cant..im not like other teens out there..their way of life seems perfect not like mine..always left me clueless..i cant think of a way..i guess i'll stop here..once again i sorry for what had happened..and as for today's outing that being cancelled..hope to be held other days..when all can be reunited..thankz..Good-bye..

Merry Christmas everyone..




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